All you need to know about me is NOTHING
Do anything you want here but don't do anything stupid please.
Bear with my spelling/grammatical mistakes.
I can't stand it myself.
Who's fault? My first language is not ENGLISH

I was probably insane to post at this time.
English Paper tomorrrow yet I'm here slacking.
Today's paper was a diasater. I didn't complete all.
my chinese had deprove.. ):

Anyway, I just hope exam will end really soon then I can relax a bit.
My body feels weird today.
I m having a serious headache. = =
Just watched the lastest eposide of my favourite drama. It was great. Climax coming really soon!

I ask HIM for sth ytd. It wasn't a life or death kind of stuff. He just need to scrifice a little. He refused on the spot. I know what that means yet, I still hope that he will suddenly come to me and say," Here you go! you can have it!"
I guess I hope too much and I fall really deep already.
What m I expecting exactly?
I have no idea.
I m not going to make a move yet I hope you do.
M I asking too much?
M I too FOOL?

btw, just a small info for my readers.
I'm Chinese and I suck at english but these are the only two language I can understand. Thanks for the comments. :)

This week is one of the crazy week. More to come though.
I screwed up both tests this week. :(

Anyway, I was on my way home the other day and I have to pass by this poly to get to the mrt station. It was their flag day, so, it's really easy to recognise all their students. My point is! I really really HATE the quality of their students.
The poly was one of the well-known poly in S'pore and I was so dumfounded by the fact that this kind of good poly could produce such poor standard students. It's really ruinning their reputation. Those students, that ended in the same train as me, their behavious was horrible. It was during peak hour, thus it was really squeezy. I was just right beside the door. they were totally aware that I was there, and, obviously knew that I was a secondary student. They were talking vulgarities and talking about things that should be talked about in public. Ofcos not in the presence of kids. They were so insensative towards the public! I know that I should'nt judge a school by a few of their students, but it wasn't the first time I experienced such things. I have to walk pass their school almost everything and I'm seeing so such of things that ruin the school's reputation. I guess it's time for the poly to take some action against such issues. It's horrible. It makes people think twice, or maybe triple while choosing wherether to go JC or POLY. With such quality of students, it really frightened me away and make me feel that the poly students ain't "GOOD".

Okay. This sucks. I m using my iPhone to blog but can't upload a photo. = =
Nvm. My MYE. Is around the corner and we all are studying really hard!

I had some issues with my friend though.
SHE is a really crazy kpop fan. Actually I m too, but not so engrossed in it as her.
Ever since we met, we quarrel. In a good way. Neither of us wants to give in. So, we just stuck there.
Recently, she's being emo. We don't know what happen.
She didn't want to talk about it.
This sucks.
Actually we all sat together in the class.
It just feel really cold and awkard with her like that.
ESP, her itouch is dead. She is getting worst daily.
What should I do?!!??!

Mid year examination is approaching and everyone has started to prepare for a battle.
Spent almost all my time in the library today.
It was the first time I reached library before it even open.
Crowds gather outside ready to run in. such a epic view.
Didn't manage to get the seat I want though.

Wanted to have pastamania for lunch, yet my friend insisted on not having it becos she didn't bring the discount card. =.=
After my friend left, I was sitting there alone.
I looked outside the window and suddenly felt so EMPTY.
It was like.. I find myself doing nothing and everything in my life seemed so meaningless all of a sudden.
Ofcos it wasn't becos she left.
It's just a sudden thought.
I figured my way back to study after that.
bought a cute elephant toy for myself and a small pillow for mom. The shop is having a 50% discount.
Yet they're not giving discount for my fav Hello Kitty. ... ...

Tomorrow is another tiring day, I don't feel like doing anything now but I don't have a choice. Gotta get back to study.
I hope tomorrow won't come so fast. Two tuition tomorrow. Pathetic.

Tuesday used to be a long day for me.
Because of band. now that I'm free from band, I had more time to study.
That's one thing I felt glad about.
Went to library with bestie today.
Finished most of my homework.

ytd, a friend text me.
In this whole world, there's only two person who know who I have fallen in love with and he is one of them.
so.. he was texting me..
Then he asked me about HIM. Well, I told him nothing happen and stuffs.
He then continued, " Then you're going to give up?"
I didn't know what to reply.
What's there to give up?
Give up my hope that my crush will one day know I like him and say I LIKE YOU TOO?
I didn't even hope for that.
Okay, maybe a little.
But I know there won't be any happy ending for both of us.
I just hope to see him more now so that I won't miss him too much after graduation.

Should I accept a expensive present from some not very close friend? It's really weird if I accept it. Does that mean I have to give him some birthday present of the same price? Nothing much to write. Gonna take a break!

I really like this polaroid!!!! I want it so badly.. :(
Anyway, I realised I likes to blog while I'm really busy.
I got tones of homeworks yet I'm here blogging.
I think I'm just trying to get away from it.

The competition had finally ended. It wasn't as good as we thought.
Total disappointment I would say.
However, we can't change the fact that it's over and we should just move on. Although I said I hate the long hours I gotta stay for all the practice for the past 3 years and 4 months. I find it difficult to cope with this terrible feeling.
Oh Shit, I miss band.
All those years spending my time trying to figure out how to skip band and try to go band a bit later so that I don't have to see conductor's face.
Recalling all those memories made me felt sad.
I felt empty.
I wouldn't be able to touch my flute anymore.
My miyazawa. Go and come quite a lot of times.
I miss everything about that room now.
Gonna have a BBQ party tomorrow night.
That will be the last time I'm gonna to be a member of band.
I don't know what will happen tomorrow.
But, I'm sure that I have to bring so tissue. I'm afraid that I'll cry. Enough about band.


Let's go back to this weird guy in my class.
XX I will name him that. He's a good friend. I guess.
He's like a wiki.. technology wiki.
He always update me will the iphone updates and stuffs.
But sometimes I just have difficulties trying to understand what he's saying.
Then he will go like WHAT THE HELL, and stuffs.
He made me felt like an idoit. Which I hate.
I can't scream at him cos he's a really god friend and I don't want anything to go wrong.
OMG, what should I do? Just let it be???!


And, Miss. X is having her birthday party this sunday. I think the fact she brought her bf along ruins the party. But who m I to say that? it's HER BIRTHDAY!
Whatever, I can't go anyway. I decided not to make my mom angry. Mom actually grounded me from going out this year cos it's my BIG year? So what the hell right? I know, but I guess I should just go with it. She's MOM.

This is one of the worst day ever.
I try to keep myself calm and not to cry, but this ain't working at all.
I felt like a LOSER.

I got sort of kicked out?
I tried my best to be my BEST.
Appearently, my best ain't your best.
And it's really very nonsense because I wasn't even playing and you think it was me who got it all screwed up!
I tried to look on the bright side that I was kicked out to second. Fine! I'm not good enough and it's a fact that I have to admit. Then, I was sick and missed 2 sessions. When I'm back, I was pushed to the last? what the hell is that!
It's okay. I can take it.
NOW WHAT???!

you gave what I'm using to someone else?
It's just TWO days away from our big day!
And now you're doing all these to me?
What are you trying to do?
Make a fool out me?
For god sake, you got it.
I WAS LIKE A TOTAL DUMBASS RIGHT THERE!
Are you happy now?
This is what you called building confidence?
You think this is it?

I wanna use all the vulgarities in the world and shout in your face.
I HATE YOU.

two more days and I'm free.
can't you just let me go peaceful?
I might be thankful for that!

Now you expect me to use this shitty thing and give you what you want?
DREAM ON you bastard!

Good evening~~~~
I just remembered that yesterday was April Fool and I forgot about my plan.. :(
Every year, I'll thought of something to scare my friends. This year, I was too busying yawning+Sleeping that I forgot to do what I planned the night before!!
Such a waste! :(

The play yesterday was pretty entertaining.
I can tell that they really put in a lot of effort to make the play successful.
All of them look great ytd.
Saw a friend of mine wearing dress make me feel weird. She's always giving people that boyish feeling. Still, the dress looks good on her.

And..
ytd night...
HIM and I.. didn't talk at ALL.
He's always surrounded by his friends,
I'm sure he didn't look at me at all.
Whatever.

I really regret something...
Really!!!!
I...
didn't tell anyone except 2 people in my life that I'm in love with HIM.
I regretted telling one of them, which is a HE.

HE'll suddenly said out his name, randomly.
And when people around don't get it, they start to use their imagination and thought of many stupid things..
I think he is such a jerk every time he does that. I felt threatened.
However, once things came out of your mouth, you can't take it back right?
I'll just bear with it and hope we will never quarrel, I'm scared that he will share the secret with the whole world. :(
To HIM is bad enough... ...

X-Country~~ Quite a joyful day!
Although I didn't run, I do have a more important job to do!
Take care of all their bags?! haha. You know how rich children are these days! Estimate to have few thousands in my bag. ( include my teacher's bag...)

Anyway, when I saw his phone in there. I have such a strong desire to unlock...
I didn't do it.
But~ If I really unlock it...
First, I'll check out my name in his contact. HAHAHA! Just wonder if I have any special name in his phone..
Secondly, I wanna check his inbox? (ewww, I sound like a extreme stalker/pervert?!) The only thing I want to see it's that there's only one girl's name in there! MY NAME!
Don't like to see him chat/ talk with other girls. JEALOUS?
How can I not be jealous? I was really tired after that.. ( Idk why also.. = = I didn't even run)
Went home~~
I m so sure that if my friends see this blog, they'll know it's me. haha. It's just my style of writing!!!!
Hope the sky turns dark! So that I can see him again soon!